JCOE.

Do you guys know how hard it is to love someone?

Ok, Join in then…

The fact that we stop for a second and think about all those times that we swear in the name of every single god that we will never fall in love but still, we did it, is very crazy!

You guys have no idea how I don’t think I deserve this relationship and how precious I think it is, that every single misstep that I go through along the way is scary, annoying, and stressing the hell out of me all the time. It shouldn’t be that way, right?

I think is because we are very contaminated by the fact that we used to live being single all the time, that we didn’t care about consequences and now that we have to care, it is really important that the person that you are deciding to establish this relationship with, is willing to understand and being mature enough to work those things out. If it doesn’t help, it doesn’t work for you.

You have to be able to notice that you guys are growing together, that you are going to the same place or space of mind. I know, every one of you must have their own thing, gig, ambitions or whatever you call it, but at the end of the day you are ending up together and talking about it, sharing experiences, having arguments perhaps about something silly… idk, to me that is growing together… to learn how to be with someone that instead of judging he is going to be listening and giving a pov that might be interfering with yours… but as I said, ending up together and improving communication is going to help you guys out to be stronger every day for the rest of your future days.

I have always visualized a life sharing memories and keeping them on pictures, (btw, I love the newest feature on iPhone that it keeps showing you random past pictures), maybe I did watch a lot of TV and learn it from my favorite TV show, but tbh, I don´t care if it makes me happy. I need to stick to my own ways to motivate myself and so I can carry on with my life. I love sharing memories and I need people around me to understand that it is important to me to make it a habit in our relationship. (I learn that form my BFF, tho).

I love that I have someone right now.

I know that is not going to be easy because **life is not fear**.

BUT (and this is a big BUTT), I promise I’m going to be the best version I can be to make it work.

Good night people.

Misa.